It's 4:00 in the morning, I can't sleep. My head keep thinking of the coming final exam. If I pass the subjects, then probably I'll be transfered to Kampar campus while my friends still remain the same place. I've failed the subjects and I'm not qualify to continue my degree. If I fail the subjects once again... then I'll still remain where I am now but it's kind of wasting my time and my parents money. I know I'm not mature or independence if I tell you that I don't want to go to Kampar because I miss my friends, my life, my house and blah blah. Going to Kampar, I meet new friends, new environment, new lecturers and new life. But..I still don't want to go. Sigh~ what can I do?
I heard my Perak's friend saying that, the distance between the Ipoh city and Kampar campus is like 30 minutes driving distance without traffic jam. There's no entertainment places like Cyber Cafe, Pubs and Cinemas where I like to hang out. One of my cute friends saying that, if we really have to transfer to Kampar....we can fish near the pond, my goodness. Even if I want to go to cinema, man~, I have to travel for like 30 minutes? Hell no...what if I don't own a car and force to travel by the public bus? Damn, it takes more than 30 minutes! If I'm not mistaken, Kampar campus is like the school build in the middle of the jungle. Well, I'm not quite sure if it's true. To be honest, it's a very good environment for student to study though, I'll admit for that part.
What if I can't make it to degree once again? Yeah, I don't have to go to Kampar for a short period(1 sem) but I have to resit for the particular subjects in order to continue my degree. Which means, if I pass or don't pass...going to Kampar is a must. It's just a matter of times. I think I should accept the fact. The problem is that, if I don't pass, I'll surely make my parents down. How are they going to face the relatives, the colleagues? What if their colleagues ask my parents - "How's your son lately?" <---This kind of question probably not asking me whether I'm in good condition here. It's asking about my exam results and graduation. How are they going to answer it? What about my relatives? I still remember my very first time going to PJ campus on 13th May 2006. The day before I went to PJ, my grandma giving me a farewell celebration at Paramount Hotel, Sibu. Hmm..I was touched. And my auntie gave me some pocket money, RM500. Damn! I can't let them down!
There's a very very serious problem on me. You know what? When I have my exam in the school, well not the real exam, I can score them with high marks, but in the final exam, I score them with "pretty" marks. I still remember when I was in Form 6, I always scored my Pengajian Am around 60 marks in the school. I know it's not good! In STPM, I scored D in Pengajian Am. What the phuck? 60 marks is not D man! After getting the results slip, I felt suspicious with the examiner. So I decided to recheck the paper. How come huh? Few months later, the examiner phoned me. She said, "tidak berubah". Phuck that! 1 subject to recheck is RM100, man and you phucking shit gave me 2 words - tidak berubah? I felt really down and did not know what I wanted to do next. I should take it as a fact and go on my life. In the end, I went to Utar - foundations! Crap!
Lastly, I wish I can make it the best for the coming final exam on Wednesday. Still not sleepy yet~ but still I have to lie on my bed and close my eyes to force myself to sleep. Hmm~...ciao!
I heard my Perak's friend saying that, the distance between the Ipoh city and Kampar campus is like 30 minutes driving distance without traffic jam. There's no entertainment places like Cyber Cafe, Pubs and Cinemas where I like to hang out. One of my cute friends saying that, if we really have to transfer to Kampar....we can fish near the pond, my goodness. Even if I want to go to cinema, man~, I have to travel for like 30 minutes? Hell no...what if I don't own a car and force to travel by the public bus? Damn, it takes more than 30 minutes! If I'm not mistaken, Kampar campus is like the school build in the middle of the jungle. Well, I'm not quite sure if it's true. To be honest, it's a very good environment for student to study though, I'll admit for that part.
What if I can't make it to degree once again? Yeah, I don't have to go to Kampar for a short period(1 sem) but I have to resit for the particular subjects in order to continue my degree. Which means, if I pass or don't pass...going to Kampar is a must. It's just a matter of times. I think I should accept the fact. The problem is that, if I don't pass, I'll surely make my parents down. How are they going to face the relatives, the colleagues? What if their colleagues ask my parents - "How's your son lately?" <---This kind of question probably not asking me whether I'm in good condition here. It's asking about my exam results and graduation. How are they going to answer it? What about my relatives? I still remember my very first time going to PJ campus on 13th May 2006. The day before I went to PJ, my grandma giving me a farewell celebration at Paramount Hotel, Sibu. Hmm..I was touched. And my auntie gave me some pocket money, RM500. Damn! I can't let them down!
There's a very very serious problem on me. You know what? When I have my exam in the school, well not the real exam, I can score them with high marks, but in the final exam, I score them with "pretty" marks. I still remember when I was in Form 6, I always scored my Pengajian Am around 60 marks in the school. I know it's not good! In STPM, I scored D in Pengajian Am. What the phuck? 60 marks is not D man! After getting the results slip, I felt suspicious with the examiner. So I decided to recheck the paper. How come huh? Few months later, the examiner phoned me. She said, "tidak berubah". Phuck that! 1 subject to recheck is RM100, man and you phucking shit gave me 2 words - tidak berubah? I felt really down and did not know what I wanted to do next. I should take it as a fact and go on my life. In the end, I went to Utar - foundations! Crap!
Lastly, I wish I can make it the best for the coming final exam on Wednesday. Still not sleepy yet~ but still I have to lie on my bed and close my eyes to force myself to sleep. Hmm~...ciao!
